If your story got published in a book - a real one - a book that you can hold and feel and smell (that new paper smell !!!) - you'd be screaming about it - right ?
I didn't, because, the last month or so has been mentally, physically and emotionally draining and I couldn't get myself to be happy about something so significant and yet small compared to all the other emotions that I was going through.
'More than a Mum' got published a few days after my dad passed away and I ordered a whole bunch of books and I didn't tell anyone and I didn't think about it again, until a few days ago when the actual book arrived in the mail and then I didn't look at it and neither did anyone else, until last night, when I realised that the reason I was running from it, was because, my dad would never get to read my story - even though he knows all that I've been through to get to this point in my life - he would never hold the book and that made me feel hollow. So I woke up this morning wanting to acknowledge that my dad would have been extremely proud of me and my achievements, irrespective of all the things I've been through in life - including - not having him around any longer.
I would, however, like to pat myself on the back for having the strength to write my story and revisiting all the emotions and trauma that I've been through over the last few years and how Bidiliia and all things design and the desire for creating jewellery - ethically and sustainably - was my saviour. Then it gave me purpose and strength and something to look forward to, to look beyond the obvious pain and agony.
And, I would like to thank Chrisite Lyons from White light publishing for making the GIANT effort to read, edit, re-edit and publish and Peace Mitchell from the Women's Business School & Ausmumpreneur for writing an inspiring foreword - for More than a Mum.
If you're looking to get inspired - look no further than getting your own copy of more than a mum - it's available here - and mention Bidiliia at checkout so we know you know us and you want to be inspired and we will send a LOT of strength, love & joy your way.
Stay strong ! Look beyond the obvious.